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Devious Journal Entry

Tue Mar 31, 2009, 5:52 PM
  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: "Don't Forget"
  • Eating: Chicken
  • Drinking: Grape juice
So I haven't done a journal entry in forever and I think it's about time I did, but it's not going to be that great. So a lot of people have been saying that I'm mean and I've been thinking about it a lot and really getting depressed about it. I don't really mean to be a mean person, but I guess I have been lately and I don't really know why. I've just been going through a lot and I'm freaking out and I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about it....well I don't feel like anyone cares and I think that's what I'm freaking out about. I feel like I don't have that many friends and that's just making it worse. I try to be a nice person but it's just blowing up in my face. Sorry I know that no one really wants to hear this, but it's nice to just rant.I love to draw and be an artistic person, but sometimes I feel like what's the point....no one really gives an interest in what I do and I know that shouldn't matter...and that I should just do it because I love it, but sometimes it's just nice to have someone give an interest in your life...just to at least let you know that they care.

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:iconlady-silvercat:
Ranting can be a good outlet, so let it out. Bottling things up inside is really not good for you and can be hard on other people around you too. I am pretty sure that more people care about you than you think. Not everyone is good at expressing it. You're a teenager, and as much as I know this is something that "everyone" says and you've heard a million times, but things get better. They really do. These are not the last years of your life. They're not the best years either. It's a lot of ups and downs and it really really sucks. Take it from someone who has been there.

As far as art goes, I lurk and I enjoy what you post. I'm sure other people do the same thing and are either too busy to comment or don't know what to say. It happens. Yes, first and foremost you do art for yourself. But everyone wants other people to enjoy their art too. That's why we put it up in a gallery right? We all have these doubts about what we create, it makes us human. That human part of us allows us to create real art. Stick with it. Take breaks if you need. But don't give it up.

So I guess what I'm really saying is, you have people that care. Things WILL get better. And as your former art teacher...don't stop creating art!

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"Remember, in art there are no mistakes...only practice." ~ Mary Anderson-Childers
:iconlizz-eru:
-tackles you- :3
I miss you D:

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Alice: I know -- I'll play you for it. Rock, paper, scissors.
Edward: Why you don't you just tell me who wins?
Alice: I do. Excellent.

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:iconlizz-eru:
Nick~~
I care! :3
What I've found that helped me (I'm pretty sure we can all agree I was extremely mean ^^;;):

1. Don't care what people think :D Everyone is entitled to their own opinion and sometimes they just suck all in all... But sometimes it's good to keep your opinions to yourself. I know when someone's being really stupid now, I just don't say anything. :) I nod and say "yup" and inside I'm thinking what an idiot they are :D

2. Don't dwell on things! ^^ I found that just letting everything go is the best way. I know it's not good to ignore problems, but it makes it a lot easier on myself (Yes, I'm really selfish :D)

3. Keep a smile on your face! :D People don't wanna be around grumpy gills. :3 I figured that out last year...It just gets everyone all depressed and makes you feel superior. But that's not good! D:

You probably don't like my advice, but that's what worked for me! ^^ I hope you can try it and have the same results :D

To tag onto the art thing. I agree with Mrs. Collins :3 Some like to lurk. I lurk all of my favorite deviants...rarely comment on them. But I do like your work and I comment on almost anything you post! ^^ (If I missed one, it's because I forgot to comment) So, keep drawing, or I won't be able to comment anyone D: and you'd make a very sad Lizz...:3

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Alice: I know -- I'll play you for it. Rock, paper, scissors.
Edward: Why you don't you just tell me who wins?
Alice: I do. Excellent.

Alice Cullen <3
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:iconwolffnick:
Haha thanks I'm sick right now, but you just made me smile...and what you said did help. ^-^
:iconwolffnick:
Thank you so much. What you had to say really helped and I feel a lot better. I think I need to just take some time for myself...I'm worrying to much about other people and I'm not taking care of myself. It's really nice talking to you...I didn't know you got on deviantart anymore. So how have things been for you?
:iconwolffnick:
Also about the art...I understand what you guys are saying and it makes a lot of sense, but It's not so much deviantart that I'm worrying about. It's mostly just the people I'm around right now. I don't want to be someone who has to have comments all the time, because that's not what art is about. I just kinda want people to ask if I've done anything new lately....just to let you know that they're interested in what you do. Anyway thank you for taking the time to let me know you care.:)
:iconwolffnick:
And thank you for letting me know that you care. It means a lot.:)
:iconlady-silvercat:
Miss you too! :heart:

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"Remember, in art there are no mistakes...only practice." ~ Mary Anderson-Childers
:iconlady-silvercat:
Things have been all right for me. I've really missed teaching you guys this year, last year with all of you at IA was one of the best years I've had. I think I learned more from my students as a whole than you guys learned from me.

Yeah I still lurk around DeviantArt even if I'm not posting my art here anymore. I will try and let you guys know when I have a real gallery up with my artwork and all.

As far as you goes, I'm glad that I could help a little. You do need to focus on yourself too. It's easy to use yourself up if you live for other people all the time and worry too much about what they think of you. Just relax and remember to be yourself. But before you can be yourself, you have to find yourself too. So don't forget to do that while you're trying to get along with other people.

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"Remember, in art there are no mistakes...only practice." ~ Mary Anderson-Childers

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