So I haven't done a journal entry in forever and I think it's about time I did, but it's not going to be that great. So a lot of people have been saying that I'm mean and I've been thinking about it a lot and really getting depressed about it. I don't really mean to be a mean person, but I guess I have been lately and I don't really know why. I've just been going through a lot and I'm freaking out and I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about it....well I don't feel like anyone cares and I think that's what I'm freaking out about. I feel like I don't have that many friends and that's just making it worse. I try to be a nice person but it's just blowing up in my face. Sorry I know that no one really wants to hear this, but it's nice to just rant.I love to draw and be an artistic person, but sometimes I feel like what's the point....no one really gives an interest in what I do and I know that shouldn't matter...and that I should just do it because I love it, but sometimes it's just nice to have someone give an interest in your life...just to at least let you know that they care.